I stole this image from google, but I will be taking some cool shots of campus when I have time. BEFORE SNOW. Look out for that post.
To say the least, college has not been treating my anxiety well; but, I had assumed that my anxiety would be a bit out of control in the beginning anyway. The first weekend here was hell! I had multiple anxiety attacks those first few days, one that dropped me to the ground, thankfully I was in my dorm when that happened! But my doctor and I have changed my medications, and so far they have helped so much. I still get anxious, as most people do, but it doesn't incapacitate me anymore. So hopefully this cocktail of medications is what I needed. I have looked into therapy, but I am still resistant. I have been this way my entire life though, especially since I was diagnosed with GAD. I know what my problem is, and I know that therapy may help, but I don't like asking for help. That is a problem that I have been working on, but we will see how it goes.
Other than the anxiety, my classes are awesome. I only have one that I absolutely hate and one that I am indifferent towards. I've discovered that philosophy is just not a subject for me. It is all very opinion based and I am a person that needs definitive answers! It is really aggravating. We started our by reading parts of The Republic by Plato surrounding Socrates' ideas and then finished that unit with reading parts of Dante's The Monarchy which surrounds Aristotle's and Dante's ideology. I am hoping that the readings are really what didn't interest me and not the full subject itself. We will be moving onto Hobbes and Locke, and I believe that I may understand and enjoy those works more. Hopefully. Women in Music is the class that I am indifferent towards. It is very interesting but I don't feel as though I am getting anything very valuable out of it just yet.
I absolutely love my class on Homeland Security. The book is very easy to read and kind of redundant but very helpful to refer to when writing my briefs. I'm learning a very different set of writing that I am struggling slightly with but it is getting better. My professor for that class is incredible. And the other classes that I have, I really don't mind all that much.
I am trying to get involved but I am doing it at my pace because I tried to do it all at once... needless to say, it didn't work out very well. But I have joined Autism Speaks U, which is a chapter of the international organization, Autism Speaks, for University students on my campus. We do a lot of fundraising for the organization and just learning about other ASDs or Autism Spectrum Disorders themselves. I have followed the mother organization for a few years and what they stand for and do is incredible. I wanted to join Debate Club, but I think that it would be too much for me this semester. There are a lot of practices and competitions, and I just don't have time for that right now.
I have went to my first football game... we won... and I will be going to my first college soccer game this Friday. My best friend is coming all of the way from her University and spending the weekend with me because it is Homecoming Weekend. We are going to tear up the town, kind of!!
I am finally getting into a bit of a routine and feeling a bit more comfortable. I know that I am going to have my ups and downs, but right now I am up and I don't want to go back down for awhile.
If any of you are interested in a more indepth post on any of this, let me know what you would like to know
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